My Biggest Complaint About My Husband Makes Me Feel Like A Loser

I’m right now in the middle of giving my husband the silent treatment. It’s not right, but I’m so tired of him demanding me to explain myself and it only being used against me. He doesn’t care about what I have to say; he just wants a way to bitch at me. I’ve been looking for a job for six months and there’s nothing but fast food available, but he doesn’t want me doing that. Yet he complains about not being able to buy all his hunting gear, go on trips, and the like. Bills are paid, but his lifestyle is suffering. Meanwhile, I’m getting older and have desperately wanted to start a family for a long time. He says he wants kids, but his actions say otherwise. He complains that we have no money, he can’t get a boat, and I’m too fat to think about having kids. I’m not huge or anything either! I just wish he’d put as much effort into encouraging me as he does in tearing me down. I’m just sick of feeling like a loser in his eyes when I’m not.